As per usual here's more late night thoughts/story time


Sometimes, I wish that I never said "yes" in the first place, to my good guy friend when he asked me out. We were friends for two years before he asked. I always liked him. He was a really good friend to me. To be honest, I never thought he would ask me out. When I first met him , he was very welcoming and really out going, which I admired. At the time he had a girlfriend who was a very sweet girl they seemed so in love, I thought they would be together forever....

It was somewhere,in grade 11 when she broke up with him. The break up was hard on him and I new it would take along time for him to heal from the breakup. I think it was my senior year of high school, when I realized I had feelings for him, but I wasnt sure if they were feelings that wanted to be more then friends. I got the feeling he liked me for sometime. One day he asked me out I was floored,and not at all expecting for this to happen, but I did say yes. I should have seen this comming everyone else did!! I had so many thoughts running through my mind it was a bit overwheming. 


What I should have said was "I need time to think it through". Why didn't I tell him that. Such simple words but they never came out of my mouth. 


Too be continued...

I will tell you this I do not believe in living with regret. Things happen for a reason. All you can do is keep moving forward. Sometimes writing the past helps close old doors or open new ones. 


xoxo


Sending my love to those, who have been reading.